Wednesday, July 8, 2009

cheese with whine

-No Graduate Assistantship
-No job
-Running low on $$$
-Car constantly having issues, today the engine overheated and I was stalled in the New Leaf parking lot for 1.5 hours,
-Computer keeps crashing, and has become a daily occurrence.
-Super confused on what to do about this Fall due to my financial status.
- Lonely, and feeling like there's a good chance I'm depressed.
-Tired of this stupid town.
-Really tired of working on this Hotel project.
- Miss my family and friends in Tampa, even when I was just there.

Sometimes I just want to explode and scream EFF at the top of my lungs because I just feel so frustrated with life. Yet I somehow maintain my composure, I give credit to God for this, as He is the only way I can keep sane. I know He'll provide for me but not seeing His provision in my stupid human time frame has become a roadblock for me.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Can't wait to be home

I feel like a Freshmen in ways. I just want to be home in Tampa as much as possible and in Tallahassee as little as possible. My car is in the shop and it's been there 2 days it needs to hurry up and get fixed so I can peace out of this joint. I am so ready for it to be over!!!!

Grad school is looking bleak, still no work on a GA or a TA position and the fiscal outlook without one is gonna kill me.

Thursday, June 25, 2009


Today two celebrities I could care less about died. And I'm getting flack for being heartless, while the loss of life is sad, I really don't care. They weren't personal friends or acquaintances, and as such I do not feel a personal loss, any greater than finding out there was a shooting last night in my city.

I am probably gonna just sit it out until my lease runs out in August as I feel like moving into the "Dudeplex" will be extremely distracting while trying to wrap this semester up and all the late nights it will entail.

I have been feeling really disconnected with people lately, like some social mechanism of mine is not working properly. I really just need to graduate, I also really don't know about Grad school, why am I rushing into this?

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Treat em like dirt, stick to ya like mud.

I just don't understand the dichotomy of my roommate's relationship with his girlfriend. It's mind boggling, how someone could treat someone else so inhumanely and disrespectful and yet still have them pull the Tammy Wynette/Hillary Clinton.

In other news I signed the lease for my housing for the next year. I'm excited, I hope that I hear that I have an assistantship with FSU soon as I have still been unable to obtain a job. Looking forward to home next week and Animal Collective in Orlando. That's mostly it for now, oh an I am going to be a Newsie this weekend for a friend's decade party...and mostly still procrastinating on this hotel project.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

The REAL controversy behind the torture photos: They show prison guards raping children (explicit)

This is where my blog will spontaneously become rather political and or controversial. But as I cannot sit idly by and watch as America destroys herself, and watch my fellow Americans be deceived I am going to post what I deem pertinent information.

[By Paul Joseph Watson, Prison | Thursday, 21 May, 2009.]
The real reason behind Obama’s reversal of a decision to release the torture photos has been almost completely ignored by the corporate media - the fact that the photos show both U.S. and Iraqi soldiers raping teenage boys in front of their mothers.

The Obama administration originally intended to release photos depicting torture and abuse of detainees in Afghanistan and Iraq by the end of May, following a court order arising out of a Freedom of Information Act lawsuit first filed by the A.C.L.U. in 2004.

However, a reversal of Obama’s decision was announced this week, after he “changed his mind after viewing some of the images and hearing warnings from his generals in Iraq and in Afghanistan that such a move would endanger U.S. troops deployed there,” according to a Washington Post report.

In response, the A.C.L.U. charged that Obama “has essentially become complicit with the torture that was rampant during the Bush years by being complicit in its coverup.” The Obama administration has also sought to protect intelligence officials involved in torture from prosecution at every turn.

The primary reason why Obama is now blocking the release of the photos is that some of the pictures, as well as video recordings, show prison guards sodomizing young boys in front of their mothers, both with objects as well as physical rape.

This horrific detail has been almost completely ignored by the establishment media in their coverage of the story this week, despite the fact that it’s been in the public domain for nearly five years, after it was first revealed by investigative Seymour Hersh during an A.C.L.U. conference in July 2004.
“I saw [name blacked out] f***ing a kid, his age would be about 15-18 years. The kid was hurting very bad and they covered all the doors with sheets. Then when I heard the screaming I climbed the door because on top it wasn’t covered and I saw [blacked out], who was wearing the military uniform putting his d**k in the little kid’s a**,” Mr. Hilas told military investigators. “I couldn’t see the face of the kid because his face wasn’t in front of the door. And the female soldier was taking pictures.”

Another inmate, Thaar Dawod, described more abuse of teenage boys.
“They came with two boys naked and they were cuffed together face to face and Grainer [Corporal Charles Graner, one of the military policemen facing court martial] was beating them and a group of guards were watching and taking pictures from top and bottom and there was three female soldiers laughing at the prisoners,” he said.

A 2004 London Telegraph report also described photos which showed “U.S. soldiers beating an Iraqi prisoner nearly to death and having sex with a female P.o.W.,” as well as a videotape, apparently made by U.S. personnel, which shows “Iraqi guards raping young boys.” (Full story here.)

Monday, June 1, 2009

When life hands you rotten cheese

Douse your entire abode with oust.

The smell of my house when I returned this afternoon was a horrible concoction that was across between dead cantaloupe and rotting Parmesan. Yes it was not pleasant, and NO it was not due to my uncleanliness I hadn't been home fore 5.5 days and it wasn't what I was looking forward to coming home to.

But such is life. Gotta sign a lease tomorrow, have a headache and I'm gonna go jog it off soon. My hotel is almost designing itself which is convenient, but I am not in love with it, just shooting for graduation. I don't think the Leadership Institute is going to be happening this Fall as the application is more intense than I expected and I am too feeble minded and uneducated in Politics to really pursue it at this time.

Hopefully I can bone up on all of that in the upcoming months.

Saturday, May 30, 2009


Sometimes I never want to leave St. Pete, yet simultaneously I miss things about Tallahassee. I wonder what awaits outside of these two homes?

Even still I feel like a nomad that doesn't BELONG in either place.

Friday, May 29, 2009

I have a fever...

...and the only prescription is more MANGOS. I love Florida and tropical climates, and the fruits that are available.

I've decided I want to own a Mango orchard this is one of my new goals for life.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

I think it's growing on me

Blogging, is way more cathartic than I expected. I figured this would be like Twitter, and Facebook, and Myspace. But it's turning out to be more like Live journal where I can just spout off whatever, sorta sweet.

I have no motivation to work on my homework and it's quickly piling up.I am starting to strongly consider the Leadership Institute for the Fall and deferring graduate school. It could be a giant risk but I think it could be a really awesome experience/adventure. We'll see though.

Tomorrow's plans are to go to the Warhol exhibit at the MFA with Hillary and get some awesome lunch somewhere downtown, hopefully Ratchadas. I must finish this space planning or I am going to be royally screwed, but I don't see that happening before Monday.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Home again Home again jiggedy jig

I'm home in St. Petersburg for 5 days, I love how my professors consistently cancel class and studio over the Summer, happens every year. They just don't feel obligated I suppose, it's fine with me as long as I graduate on time. I found out there is a Andy Warhol exhibit at the museum downtown and I am definitely checking that out ASAP. I love modern art and while his work has become almost cliche' in our culture I still find it refreshing.

My Mom thinks I have Strep throat and I'm gonna try to resolve that tomorrow, it may entail finding a new primary care Dr. as I don't think I can still go to my Pediatrician at 22 years of age. I hate Doctors and don't want to try to find a new one. Too bad HMOs are awful things and I'm not covered to use a Dr. in Tallahassee.

I hate T-mobile, it's a long story and I can explain it to you in person if you care, but avoid them like leprosy, if at all possible. I was with them for 6 years and they are still trying to rape me for $250.00 bones.

I have 3 awesome new roommates for the Fall and I'm pretty excited for this next year. However, due to the lack of funds, and unsure about my graduate assistant ship I'm about to throw caution to the wind and do something out of character. That would be to join the Young Americans for Liberty and go to the Leadership Institute this Fall and become a field representative. I just got the information about it and it's really exciting to me, I have to look into it more. This would mean abandoning Grad school at FSU and my plans in Tallahassee.

I really wish I could just float through this last Summer semester and be done with it. I'm over the field of interior design, my professors, the mindset, and almost all aspects of it.

Current things that I'm stoked out of my mind for: Andy Warhol Exhibit, My new Roommates, My new House, Graduation, Animal Collective Show, New friends, and Crossbridge.